"The Fool is Hurt" is a photo collaboration between me and actor Jake McDorman. We shot this series of photographs over the course of a day in downtown Los Angeles.
When I arrived in Los Angeles I was dialed into the music scene. Coming off the implosion of my own band it was a natural fit. Fortunately, a lot of the musicians I met were also actors, and so began my career as an editorial portrait photographer in LA.
One of the people I met was Jake. A massively talented actor and musician.
Our first meeting at the local diner evolved into a long conversation about art, and commerce, Can they coexist? And, is it possible, as an artist, to enjoy them both in one lifetime? As an actor in Hollywood Jake explained how he was torn between the kinds of jobs he was being offered and the kinds of jobs he imagined himself doing.
Conscious of being in a fortunate position, that of an actor, in work, earning money, liberated on some fronts, and also aware that he might be going further down a path that would be difficult to back peddle.
He talked at length about feeling like a fool, a clown, a court jester, about being out of control and having no say.
This shoot was pure self-expression on Jake's part, I was there to witness and capture.
We sourced the perfect costume, got the amazing Amy Strozzi to do the makeup, and took to the streets of downtown Los Angeles.
We booked a room in a section 8 hotel.
Imagine, if you will, a once-grand building, now fallen on hard times, and into disrepair. Given over to the subterranean, and down at heel.
Paper-thin walls give you a glimpse into your neighbor's day in the audible screams that range from sexual to scary. Mumblings of the drug-addled and alcohol-soaked seeped into our experience.
Jake embodied the part of the clown returning to his cell, wondering how he got to be in this place when life was supposed to be so grand.
All shot on film.
Hasselblad 500cm: Medium format
Nikon FM2: 35mm